Thoughts on Tonight: 2/15ish/23

Thoughts on tonight: I’m glad I did finally take an interest in anime because I think people assume I have an interest because I definitely look and act like an anime character.

Also….You can be shorter than me but your feet gotta be bigger, we are not cured of all of our conplexes just yet 🙏🏽

Lastly, I love the safety of my home. I love the feeling I get when I’m almost to my driveway. I’ve wanted this feeling for my home for a long time but it’s long been a place I dreaded pulling up to. Didn’t want to go inside with the reminders of all of my misgivings. But as I’m healing my relationship with myself and the way I speak to myself and draw meaning from my surroundings, I’m not tying my whole identity to the state of my home but I’m striving to inject more of my identity within its walls and that feels hopeful. Especially as I come to a level place with who it is that I am. I’m giving myself more grace and understanding for the ways my spaces can be as I traverse this mental landscape that is our life experience. I’m finding more appreciation for what I see. I see my survival within these walls. I see how I’ve coped with what ails me. And I’m giving myself the biggest hug however it looks and saying “good job, looks good” or “let’s see if we can pick some of this up together”. And moving on. Now I quickly gather up my things and head inside. Where I can clearly see myself and love on her.

Goodnight, loves.