We are going to use this stream to discuss how I chose the name mamaPRISM and the thoughts that continue to shape my writing and inform the way I take up space “here” and everywhere. Let’s go there :)

Why Mama?

Mama is the one label I have that will never change and I never hope to change it. I have embraced the aspects of motherhood, being a creator, growing something special inside of you, and nurturing what I love so completely that I can’t ever imagine not feeling connection there. Each day as a mama and a creator feels full and purposeful and I continue to grow in the ways that I embody this gift.

Why PRISM?

I think of all people as complex and multifaceted, reflecting and shining light in their own way. Like prisms. I believe the unique way we are cut impacts how we view others and ourselves and through this metaphor I’m able to find more beauty in our differences. It keeps me curious about the ways we all bend light and perpetually delighted by the colors we make.

Why I’m taking yet another stab at blogging and calling myself an artist…

It’s been engrained in us to feel shame about the parts of ourselves that someone might perceive as imperfect. We are taught to hide the bad and proudly show the good. I have had so many experiences and with them I’ve become a professional at hiding my experiences, whether good or bad, and I’m finally over living my life in whispers.

I’m happy that in this lifetime I’ve experienced moments of weightlessness and separation from my experiences as something that must define me and shape who I can be. In these moments I’m free from guilt or pride or judgment about the course of my life. In these moments of weightlessness I’ve come to know that I can be and experience anything and everything. This is a delight to someone who has lived as I have (sometimes in the dark of my own mind, feeling separate from everyone and alien to myself). I’m satisfied enough to have this kind of peace at all, however fleeting and temporary it can be, and feel fulfilled in knowing that life truly is what I decide to make of it. This isn’t a naïve platitude that sounds nice and makes for a good bumper sticker. This really is all that life is and acceptance of this has been liberating in ways I plan to write and make art about for the rest of my days.

I think I’ve waited my whole life to ride off into the sunset in my happy and safe and freedom-filled life and it becomes more of a possible reality every day. But in now 36 years, the pull to make sure I’m teaching and sharing and shining has never left me. Even in my lowest moments, I’ve always felt drawn to supporting and nurturing people and I’m happy now that I’m putting more energy behind answering that call in ways that are healthy and sustainable for me. I see now how it was meant for me to draw from my experiences (not shunning and shaming myself for them) to be able to hold loving and nonjudgmental space for others to see themselves in the light of love. To reflect others’ brilliance back to them and to believe with them in the direction of their highest good. Living long enough, motherhood, and many divine messages have given me the strength and inspiration to really focus on my energy and to be intentional with building and enforcing boundaries so that I have energy to press forward and serve in the areas that enrich me and all of those who are currently under my care. I take my commitment to this seriously because I take my purpose seriously.

And I’m saying all of this out loud not because it brings me any glory or likes or even make me feel good about myself but because everyone is worthy of the peace that is finding yourself and then learning to love what you find. We all deserve the clarity of seeing ourselves and then deciding which parts of ourselves will move forward with us in the person we desire to become. And not one of us is so low that we don’t deserve a helping hand along the way. I’m saying all of this out loud because people need to know that there are people willing to walk with you while you plan and manifest in the direction of your dream life—the life that puts you in flow with yourself and everything that exists. I am committing myself to being a little louder about the peace I’m finding within because for some of us seeing is still believing. If only one person is led through me to examine their life, their desires, their shame in a new light that allows them to move forward in flow with themselves, it’s worth every moment I have to cringe through in shamelessly speaking on believing that flow and abundance are not just possible but a birthright for everyone and everything that exists.

It’s important to me that conversations about growth, health, self-care, relationships, parenting, community, world-building, creation, and art include voices like mine so I’m lending my voice for those that need to hear specifically from me. I’m sharing because I’m finally ready to share. I’m sharing because I think my ride off into the sunset would be so much sweeter if I can bring others along with me. I’m sharing because I want to position myself to collaborate with others in ways that are fun and expand what we believe is possible in our collective life experience. I don’t think anything moves humanity forward the way art, connection, and love can so this space is my digital playground for cultivating those in myself and hopefully in a few others.

Thanks for reading and if you’d like to connect more on anything please reach out here :)